Vanity.

I'm vain. I know it. And I'm not afraid to say so and shout it out, I like to feel sexy and fun and I wanna be the hottest looking b**** in the joint. This may be my youth speaking, as lately I've realized I care more and more about how I look. I used to call myself ugly, fat, disgusting, oily, but lately I've realized....you don't care how I look, so why should I care about what others think? So Im starting a quest for myself. I want to put my body up to its full potential. I feel like if i can look the way I feel on the inside, then i may finally see the beautiful woman I was raised to be. My family has always had weight problems, and it hasn't helped that my mother cooks the most amazing southern food I've ever known.....I'm only writing this right now, b/c I'm hoping that writing every day will help keep me motivated to stay on the right track. It's important for me to get to a point where I feel great inside and out. I wanna look like a pop star....Call me vain, but guess what, those people arent dying of heart attacks and high blood pressure at young ages (though they may die of other things....lol). So excuse my vanity for a while at least, but I'm ready to look like i wanna!